I remember that day.
I remember the cold air and the dark black sky.
I remember the bright lights at the rehearsal.
I remember the way she rushed in and started frantically searching for me.
I remember me the pain in her eyes as she pulled me outside and handed me her phone.
I remember hearing the fear in their voice as they told me about the accident.
I remember thinking I lost you without getting the chance to apologize.
I remember sliding down the wall onto the floor.
I remember her arms around me.
I remember the wave of relief, followed by guilt, followed by sadness.
I remember telling them I hadn’t heard from you.
I remember imagining the blood and glass and snow and sirens.
I remember it started to snow.
I remember the big, fluffy flakes that seemed too beautiful for this night.
I remember the air hurting my lungs.
I remember the panic of trying to reach you.
I remember reaching her by chance.
I remember how her happiness turned to confusion as I told her how we were all trying to reach her.
I remember telling her she needed to call you right away.
I remember the tears of sorrow, knowing her birthday would be marred forever.
I remember you telling me that she kept screaming.
I remember hearing that you were okay, but knowing you were far from it.
I remember all the ringing and all of the voices trying to figure out what was happening.
I remember his anger at you.
I remember picturing him alone in the field, unleashing his rage upon the dead crops.
I remember her telling me that it was really bad and to just pray.
I remember you called again to tell me you went to stay with him and watched his lips turn blue.
I remember the tremors in your voice.
I remember trying to say something reassuring, but it probably came off as insensitive.
I remember the sympathetic pats on the back and awkward exits, not knowing what to do or say.
I remember the knots in my stomach.
I remember the grilled cheese sandwich.
I remember the strange peace when I fell asleep.
I remember he came to me in my dreams.
I remember waking up to knowing he was gone.
